Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Lily Rolls Over

Lily has been rolling over since July 17th tummy time is finally paying off! coming as soon as I can figure out how to get it onto the computer.

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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Miss Lily Turns 0

Today is Lily's due date, which is also her "Developmental Birthday".
She turns 0 today for her adjusted age. Even though she is actually 9 weeks old, all of her developmental progress - rolling over, reaching for objects, sitting up, babbling, walking, etc. - will be tracked based on her due date not her birth date.

We got her a small cake and a 0 birthday topper candle.
It is hard to think that all of this time that has passed (9 weeks) and she was supposed to still be growing inside of me :(

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

Latest Pics

Bath Time

Lil' Peanut

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Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Lily hits 5 pounds

Lily hit 5 pounds today!
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Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Reflecting Back on the NICU

I didn't have time to journal any of my thoughts while Lily was in the NICU, I was too busy running back and forth, pumping, crying and trying to get myself healed....

Even though I knew that Lily was going to end up in the NICU and I had 20 days to process it while I was in the hospital, I guess I didn't think it was going to be as hard as it was.

Each day I would have to "emotionally brace myself" for what I might hear from the Doctors and Nurses. On days that Lily was doing well - I was doing well, and on days that Lily had a setback - I would have a setback (an emotional one).

I had not thought about or prepared myself (I don't know if I even could have) for what an emotional roller coaster life in the NICU was. Some days I would love Lily's Nurses and other days I would feel like they were not giving me enough privacy with my own child, or treating me like I was her mother - a lot of days I felt completely helpless.

Life in the NICU would have me feel
some of my lowest lows...
  • For five days they stopped feeding Lily because she was having so many residuals and put a suction tube down her throat to see what was in her stomach
  • Not feeling like I was able to bond with my own child, because of care times
  • Getting to a certain amount for feedings and then starting over again because of residuals
  • Finding out Lily had an infection
  • One day I came in and they told me they had bottle fed Lily - AWESOME!!!....But wait, why had they not waited for me to be in at my care time to see that? Didn't they understand that as her parents we would want to see such a big milestone?
  • Each day another baby left, and Lily was still there :(
...and some of my highest highs...
  • The first day I held my Little Lily was the best day of my life! I felt like a mom!
  • I looked forward to Kangaroo Care everyday and it was always amazing
  • When they told me I could put her to breast
  • The day they took her off her nasal cannula
  • The first day I saw her in clothes - how cute!!
  • The day that her iv was dc'd was awesome, and meant family that had waited so long to hold Lily would finally be able to
  • I remember the day she moved to her "Big Girl Bed" I cried
  • The day one of the nurses gave us the CPR training book, because I knew from listening in the NICU, that they only gave you the CPR training book when you were close to getting discharged
  • The day they finally removed her feeding tube
  • The day she got discharged and they told us she would not be going home on a monitor!
I know we were lucky... Lily only had a nasal cannula for breathing (thanks to the steroid shots I received) and she did not require any surgeries, but it was still tough for us as parents to sit back and watch as others cared for our little one.

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